I can still remember my first crush. We were in preschool. He had blonde spikey hair that everyone was obsessed with (interesting since I don't usually go for blondes...). I remember one day, everyone went to go touch his cool hair (weirdos) and I just stood, frozen, refusing to go near him. I was that girl who was dreaming about her wedding day and picking out a wedding gown at age 8. Growing up as that girl was not easy. I had crushes (bordering obsessions) all the time. This, paired with my dreamer personality type, lead to my heart being broken many times. As I got older, I started to have Godly expectations of what I wanted in a man and so I never really dated in high school (thank the Lord). Now as a young adult, I have stayed single and man, it is hard. Just as a disclaimer; I am in my early twenties so I don't want to pretend to know what it's like to be single at other times of life, I know it is different. But, regardless, for a person who desires to be married at some point, singleness is hard. There is a constant battle with loneliness. And, living in a world of couples, sometimes makes you feel like you don't belong. There are times my annoying girl-brain makes me think things like, "maybe if I lost some weight, wore more makeup, wore less makeup, dressed differently, died my hair a different color, then I wouldn't be single." I have talked to my single girl friends and we all have those thoughts every now and then and we all hate them. Society seems to say, if no one is actively desiring you, then you are not desirable. This is something I battle with but, my friends, it just plain old not true. We are desirable and we have wonderful God who is constantly pursuing our souls.
This leads me to why I love singleness. Knowing the Lord as a single woman is so special. Whether you are single or married, Jesus is the only one who can ever love us the way our souls so desire to be loved. The ways I want to be pursued by a man, Jesus has and forever will, whether a man ever comes into my life or not. Jesus' love and pursuit of my heart is eternal. I have been spending a lot of time in the Old Testament because, I just love to read about the Lord's ceaseless pursuit of Israel. For the past week or so I have been reading Hosea 2 everyday, and it says in verses 19-20, "I will make you my wife forever, showing you righteousness and justice, unfailing love and compassion. I will be faithful to you and make you mine, and you will finally know me as Lord." How can it get better then that? A man cannot do all that, only Jesus can. And while I'm in this season of singleness, I can enjoy other perks too. I love being independent, going wherever whenever, spending my money how I want, wearing PJ's all day, watching chick flicks, sleeping in till noon. I like not having someone else to worry about, just me and Jesus. I also love not sharing Jesus, like I almost feel possessive of my relationship with Him. Does that make sense? Don't get me wrong I love sharing about Him to people and sharing my testimony but, a serious relationship is a different kind of depth then sharing my testimony. Anyway, I hope you single people are able to appreciate your time of singleness. Take the time to focus on you, I know it sounds cliché but seriously. Think about what you want, what you like, who you are, etc. Being single is both good and bad but, at the end of the day Jesus is enough.
Lord, thank you for singleness and all you teach us through it. I pray that my single friends would look to You to fill their God-sized emptiness. Thank you for pursuing us through our pain and doubts. We love you Jesus.
This leads me to why I love singleness. Knowing the Lord as a single woman is so special. Whether you are single or married, Jesus is the only one who can ever love us the way our souls so desire to be loved. The ways I want to be pursued by a man, Jesus has and forever will, whether a man ever comes into my life or not. Jesus' love and pursuit of my heart is eternal. I have been spending a lot of time in the Old Testament because, I just love to read about the Lord's ceaseless pursuit of Israel. For the past week or so I have been reading Hosea 2 everyday, and it says in verses 19-20, "I will make you my wife forever, showing you righteousness and justice, unfailing love and compassion. I will be faithful to you and make you mine, and you will finally know me as Lord." How can it get better then that? A man cannot do all that, only Jesus can. And while I'm in this season of singleness, I can enjoy other perks too. I love being independent, going wherever whenever, spending my money how I want, wearing PJ's all day, watching chick flicks, sleeping in till noon. I like not having someone else to worry about, just me and Jesus. I also love not sharing Jesus, like I almost feel possessive of my relationship with Him. Does that make sense? Don't get me wrong I love sharing about Him to people and sharing my testimony but, a serious relationship is a different kind of depth then sharing my testimony. Anyway, I hope you single people are able to appreciate your time of singleness. Take the time to focus on you, I know it sounds cliché but seriously. Think about what you want, what you like, who you are, etc. Being single is both good and bad but, at the end of the day Jesus is enough.
Lord, thank you for singleness and all you teach us through it. I pray that my single friends would look to You to fill their God-sized emptiness. Thank you for pursuing us through our pain and doubts. We love you Jesus.