Sometimes, I eat my feelings. Sometimes, I watch LOTR all day. Sometimes I smoke cigars. Sometimes I don't exercise. Sometimes, I procrastinate. Sometimes, I buy things I don't need. Anybody else imperfect? There is such a pressure to be perfect. The media tells you to look perfect by loosing weight, wearing makeup, wearing certain kinds of clothing, and sometimes surgically changing who you are. We have pressure from friends and family about how we should act, what we should say and do, things we should or shouldn't be interested in. Though sometimes (most times) the most pressure to be perfect comes from ourselves. At least for me it does. I have only recently realized how detrimental this is. We tell ourselves that in some way we are not good enough and need to change. This thought becomes ingrained in who we are, how we think, and what we do until one day you realize it's all wrong. That is what the Lord did for me. I was thinking some fairly self-hating thoughts one morning on my way to work when it hit me how wrong this was. How do we change these things? How the heck do you change parts of yourself? Change is so freaking hard. The Lord is teaching me how to love and accept myself and my imperfections but it is a slow process. I want to encourage you ladies to do the same. If you have been putting unreachable pressures on yourself my prayer is that the Lord would start moving in your life and teach you how to love yourself. Doesn't that sound cliché? Learning how to love yourself. That's some line people use in stupid chick-flicks. But it's real! I'm starting to think that hardly anyone just naturally loves themselves without effort. Some people don't realize their self-hating ways, I think that's worse then knowing. At least when you know you have the hope of change. And so, for those of you who don't know I AM NOT PERFECT and it is okay...sorta...kinda...it will be. My friends, pray for me in this process and I will also pray for you my sista-frands.
Lord, I pray for love. I pray that you would teach us how to love ourselves, that You the King of Love would teach us to love. Jesus, help us to thank You for our imperfections.
Lord, I pray for love. I pray that you would teach us how to love ourselves, that You the King of Love would teach us to love. Jesus, help us to thank You for our imperfections.